To day was the second day that we had that was in the high 50 degree and maybe even hit 60. I have a pile of lumber and tools out in the car port so it takes some doing to get all the parts and pieces together. Today I built a stand that will hold two strarter flats for veggie seeds for the garden. Looked pretty cool and I used a new tool that helpped in the putting it together. I started working on picture frames. I have 8 things to get framed. Yes Matt and Becca two are ones I was trying to get together for your wedding and did not turn out the way I wanted them to. So sanding them down and starting some new one. I was out side and I could feel the air was still cold and damp but the sun was shining and it was warming up.
I got really thoughty.Don’t know if that is a word but it means thinking a whole bunch. Went we are youg we have a lot of energy time and no money or resources to get things done so you beg borrow and use others things to improve your plight. Then you get a little older and you have a little money but now you have a lot of responisbilty and so you go trying to get where you want. I then found myself with a family farm not enough time and money to make it work . So time progress? and now My health has done as perdicted years ago. I find myself in a wheel chair. I had 38 years into Social Security and now I am blessed with a disability so I don’ t have to go to a job that I hurt at day and nite and could not make it with out coming home and going right to bed and starting all over int he morning.But here I am again with one of the pieces of the puzzle but not able to have all the pieces to do the puzzle.
God whats the deal Then again as times in the past I was shown all the blessings that I have that are not weighed with $$ yard stick and then as I sat on the porch with the sun warming my face I realized I need to take life as it comes and enjoy the day. No wonder there is a saying “stop and smell the roses.” Well now I am going to take the time to smell,look at and touch the thorns just so I can experience the whole rose.
I often wonder how can I love my “brother” meaning everybody around me. Well I can’t do that can’t love another person or thing. Well I have a real blessing in a visitor that comes and terrorized me for three days a week Roxy , sons Boston Terrier visits us while his Ben works. That little ball of dog has shown me that I can be loved and love. I sit and get anxious when I think it is getting time for her to come over. This morning Ben came in after shift and got Roxy and she showed me I love you but now I have to go with Ben and love him, but I’ll be back . No wonder St Francis of Assisi loved the animals they are more like Christ love than most man can be. So Roxy.. going to have a good week and see you Sunday. I am a better person for having known you. squirt…
So when you give yourself permission to be where you are at and to love more than you thought you could life changes. Still have the aritheris pain and frustrations but they are a different shade .
Maybe some way some how this can let someone know who is in pain,furstration, some encouragement to make it day by day. Sometimes it is not real easy.
God Bless us all.
